Limit

Ever since I started blogging, I have wondered about this. What is the limit of expressing you opinions and feelings in the blog.

I guess it's up to myself, right? How much do we want to reveal ourself to the public. Do we really want them to know about it.

I have always been a private person. People can't figure me out. Sometimes, I think I'm stupid for even starting to blog. I'm not fond of telling people my problems. I like to hide them in my shell. But when I started writing, I can't help myself. My fingers start to type everything that goes through my mind.

After I publish them, I sometimes felt like being stripped naked. Everyone can see through me. All the skeletons in my closets are out in the open. For people to criticize, to laugh at, to sympathize on. I hate those feelings. I don't want to feel it again. I don't want people to know.

But I can't help myself. Like a junkie. My hands start to write in my blog. Expressing every bit of feelings I felt. Every unnecessary opinions. Countless times I review my post, trying to decide whether I revealed too much or not. Did I cross the line or not. To publish them or not. Even after going through them, editing them, I still think they're too much.

So, anyone who read my blog. Please don't judge me. I am just Qeel Hannah. Random. Normal. Troublesome.