Screaming from Within

I just came back from my aunt's place, which is just down the road from my house.

You can imagine how happy and excited I am right now. Words can't describe it. If I wasn't so paranoid and care too much what others think of me, I'd be hopping, swirling, ballet dancing in the rain under the barely there moonlight. Singing cheerily out of tune. Kissing and hugging possibly literally everything that's kissable or hug-able. Or if I'm a manga character, you'd possibly see my pupil unrealistically dilated and sparkly, and so happy and grateful that my eyes become teary.

Yes, I am THAT happy. Those kind of feelings doesn't come too often.

I'm promise I'll tell you what the fuss it about. LATER. Not in this post.

Final Exam 2.0

I know. It's kinda late to post something about my ongoing final exam. Two papers down, four left to go. There's still SOMETHING to write about.

So, on 29 Oct, I took the BEL260 paper. It was pretty easy considering it is only an English paper. And yesterday (4 Nov), I sat down in the exam room/gym/hall for the PAD170 - Government & Politics paper. The time gap between those two papers was roughly one whole week, so you may think that I had enough preparation to sit for PAD170. Well, truth to be told, I've been studying through osmosis until two days before the paper. (Viv had to spank me, to make sure that I actually open the books, read and understand them.) I sort off regret procrastinating, the course is one of the killer subject, so obviously I had a hard time answering them. The three hours they gave us to answer the questions is not enough.

Moving on. I have four papers left: CTU151, ACC114, ECO162 & PAD160. CTU151 is tomorrow, I still haven't read a word, I don't have the book, or the notes. Nada.
Nothing. I spent my time in class doodling. Never mind, it's mostly logic and common knowledge anyway.

Next week, *sigh* three major papers. One day gap between one another. Maybe I really should be studying. I can't let my CGPA drop. I did pretty well last semester. Mom'll be pissed if there's too much difference. She may confiscate one of my privileges. (Wonder which one she'll choose: Hope it's not my vacation.)

Darn. Alright. I'll study my ass off starting today. It's only for a week. After that, its the HOLIDAYS! I'm going to be on a vacation anyway. It'll be worth it. No?

Now, how should I start?

PostSecret

I have always been a follower of PostSecret Sunday.

And I've always liked this PostSecret - Love video compilation.

Let's End This

Oh Gosh, I just checked my own blog. And realised that for the past numbers of posts, it has been a streak of Youtube music videos.

And cheesy, cheesy musics.

This have to end. Even I myself want to barf at my own blog.

I need a better taste in music.

Anyway, let's begin the ending of these cheesy songs with a real music.



Ah. Paramore. That's much better. Isn't it?

Okay, since my previous posts has been nothing but Youtube videos. I'll write about my week in this post.

So, I have my brothers back in my parents' house. Don't worry, it's just for Raya.

I never realised how much I missed them. (I'm sure they don't read my blog. Therefore I feel safe pointing this out.) Both of them being here brings back old memories. The kind of memories that made you chuckle or laugh out loud when you reminisce.

They can be annoying at times, but somehow I don't mind it. Really. I truly don't. Even when they hijack my stuff, made me do stuff, or got me in trouble with the parents. They're my brothers, and thats what brothers do - make their sister's life miserable.

Their little teasing and constant demanding make this big empty old house merry again. Sometimes, their subconcious actions brought smiles and laughter too, and they don't even realise it.

We all have our own egos. We all don't want to show our true emotions. But we all know that we care. Eventhough we try our very best to hide them. Yes, our "I-don't-care-what-you-do" attitude is actually what give us away.

One more sibling, and the equation will be complete.

Hurry home, sister! It's not the same without the true troublemaker.



A Paramore cover to notes the end of cheesy songs in my blog.
(Well, at least for these few weeks.)

Please Don't Leave Me

Gotta Love P!NK

Anyway, on an unrelated note, i've pulled an allnighter tempting to understand my PAD160 - Principles of Management assignment.

Note: Tempting to understand.

Yes, I still haven't penned my part of the assignment yet. I would not admit defeat to plagiarism (yet!) eventhough the clock is ticking. However, I now have a clear view of what they're all about, so I should be able to write them. Especially when my inspiration starts to kick in, I would be typing non-stop.

A personal message to my PAD160 lecturer:

Dear Madam,

The reason why we never seems to pay attention to you in class is because your voice is so small, even mouse have difficulties to hear it. In addition, its boring. Oh, don't be a perv and favor the guys over us girls. They make more noise than us, and they sleeps in class!

P.S: Please, next time, give a CLEAR instruction on the assignments.

Love,
Your students who will ace your class nevertheless.

Meet Me Halfway

Yes, I do realise I've been posting lots of YouTube Music lately.

I'm supposed to be doing my assignments now, I mentioned about them in my post on Sunday. But, to tell you the truth, I don't seem to be making any process. My head is filled with other things.

3 assignments, none near finishing, all to be submitted next Monday.

Let the FORCE be with me.
(Star Wars quote)

Lemon Tree

Like "OMG! I haven't heard this song in AGES!" (try to imagine I saying that line with the bimbo kind of attitude)

Yeah, I haven't heard this song in ages. This song was popular when I was still in kindergarden! But somehow it popped into my head during my financial accounting class. (The lecturer were distributing our test result, I passed, suprisingly) My mind couldn't focus to anything this week. And this week, FOCUS is what I absolutely NEED. My assignments are still no where near finishing, and the dateline isn't going to wait for me.

Got to keep my priorities straight. Have to let go of certain things. Forgo.

Gotta Gotta Keep My Head In The Game!
(High School Musical's song!)

Nokia N97 vs. Samsung Jet

My birthday had passed. But the birthday present hasn't been decided yet.

I think I'll ask for a new phone. My brother suggested two models: Nokia N97 vs Samsung Jet.

I still can't decide. Both look pretty luring. Check out the Youtube videos of both model of mobile phones below.

Nokia N97







Samsung Jet







So, after seeing the videos, which do you think is better?
I can't decide. And I have to decide before the offer is over.

Assignments

What a campus life without any assignments?

In fact, there's a little too much assignments given by our "beloved" lecturers and professors.

I've finally letting go of my holiday mode, and slowly trying to catch up on my long ignored campus life. After all, I may be lucky with my result last semester, but it may not repeat itself. I have to work hard to ensure that history repeats itself.

Dream will always be a dream unless we change it.

So, let's start with the course that has the most difficult (maybe not so difficult, just plain annoying) assignments.

PAD 170 - Government & Politics

So far, we've only been given two assignment. Yes, only two. Hold your judgment until I'm done elaborating.

One of the assignment is a book review; another is an analytical-critical essay.

Book Review

We can look for any book related to government and politics. it can be conceptual, analytical or descriptive book about government and politics in Malaysia or abroad. It can also be theoretical, discussing about the different school of thoughts in the study of the field. The review should be no less than 2000 words.

We have to submit our review on September 11, 2009. no review will be accepted later.

Essay

1. According to Francis Fukuyama in his book, "The End of History and the Last Man", western liberal democracy is the best form of government. He writes: "What we may be witnessing is not just the end of Cold War, or the passing of a particular period of post-war history, but the end of history as such: that is, the end point of mankind's ideological evolution and the universalisation of Western liberal democracy as the final form of human government" (Fukuyama 1989, p. 162). Those who support Fukuyama believe that he is right by looking at the fact that most democratic countries achieve better economic development and political stability than non-democratic ones.

• Do you agree with Fukuyama's thesis? Why?
• What do you think are the obstacles for a country like Malaysia to adopt a democratic form of government?
• How do you explain the principle of parliamentary democracy in Malaysia?
• Does the current political situation in Malaysia reflect her commitment to such principle? Why?

2. The President of Sabah Progressive Party (SAPP) Yong Teck Lee had attempted to table a motion of no confidence in former Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi. Not later than that, the Parti Keadilan Rakyat (PKR) president Wan Azizah Ismail followed suit. Both, however, failed.

• By referring to the workings of a parliamentary system, explain the reasons why both leaders failed to force Abdullah to step down through a motion of no confidence.
• What are the roles of a "party whip" in parliamentary system?
  
• What are the main differences between British and Malaysian parliamentary system?

3. Technically speaking, the president of the United States of America cannot be impeached easily by the legislative branch.

• Explain, with specific examples, why the impeachment process is difficult.
• Compare the selection and removal of a president in presidential system with that of a prime minister in parliamentary system.

4. The legislative process in the United States of America is relatively difficult and can cause deadlock. In Malaysia, a piece of legislation can be passed easily without much hassle.

• Explain, with specific examples, why it is difficult for a bill to be passed in the United States and why it is relatively easier in Malaysia.
• Do you agree with the suggestion to broadcast parliamentary debate in Malaysia? Why?
• How do you assess the quality of parliamentary debate in Malaysian parliament?

The essay should be no less than 2500 words excluding endnotes/footnotes and references. References cited must be listed and should follow the latest Harvard Referencing Style.

The essay should be submitted on September 11, 2009.

Don't fuss yet, take a deep breathe. We only have to choose ONE of the topics for essay assignment. Our professor are not evil demon trying to torture our souls on Earth. He know that we can't possibly do ALL four of them.

2500 words is approximately 15 pages. 2000 words should be around 10 pages then.

That mean, we have to write about 25 pages by September 11.

Note the date. The day World Trade Center was attacked by terrorist.

So, which topic do you think I should choose for my essay assignment? I already chosen "May 13: Declassified Documents on the Malaysian Riots of 1969" for my book review.



P/S: This is only for PAD 170. I have 5 more courses this semester.

Love Story

Taylor Swift herself tweeted the link to this video.



The guy, Gabe, did a cover on Taylor Swift's Love Story. However, with a twist. He changed some words of the song so it will be in Romeo's perspective.

This is so sweet. Imagine some guy sings this song for you.

p/s: Yes, Gabe. YES! YES! YES!

The Beautiful Life

I knew there's a reason why I like Cordin more than Zac Efron.
He's branching out from the High School Musical franchise, and looking uber-hot doing it!





The Beautiful Life: TBL focuses on the daily lives of young models living together in a models' residence in New York, while struggling to deal with the cutthroat competition and fleeting fame of the fashion world.



The cast of The CW's 'The Beautiful Life: TBL' posed nude in a series of new advertisements for the upcoming Fall TV show. The show's stars Corbin Bleu, Sara Paxton, Ben Hollingsworth and Ashley Madekwe are covered with nothing more than the 'Beautiful Life' logo in the sexy new black & white ads. However, Mischa Barton who recently has a meltdown is noticeably absent from the ads. Probably too skinny to look hot in nude, anyway. At least she's getting her acts back together.




The new series is produced by Ashton Kutcher. Wow. The former MTV's Punk host is one of the producer. Can you believe it?

I will definitely tune in to this show. Could this be better than Gossip Girl?

Puffy Puff

Founders of Puffy Puff

Oh. Sorry. This was supposed to be posted last night. But I was too, well, I wasn't in the mood to type. That's all. At least I'm honest, right?

President of Puffy Puff : Sketching & Approving Logo Design

So, for PAD 160 - Principles of Management, we were given the task of developing our own companies and designing the organization. Obviously, when you group 4 girls with vivid imagination together, we get a little carried away.

VP Marketing : Puffy Puff Brings The Taste of Malaysia To The World

Our task only requires us to understand the organizational chart. Identify the advantages & disadvantages of using such format of organization. That's it. The making-up-your-own-company part was just to add some fun and imagination to the syllabus. We took that part a little to seriously and envisioned the whole things.

The company start-up.
Well, obviously, firstly we choose what form of business we want to run. Service or product. We've chosen product. Then, what product to sell. We had a rather profound discussion on this matter, in fact, I think if we made up our mind 5 minutes too late, the company would have fallen apart before it even "started". Thankfully, Yaya backed down on her cosmetic line proposal and agree on food industry instead. Food chain is a billion-dollar industry, and everyone need food to survive. After chosen food chain franchising business, we had a little bump on the road to success. We couldn't figure out what niche market can we venture in.

Alia Bee, VP Human Resources : Manage the internal organization.

Think Globally; Act Locally.
We wanted to be different, yet acceptable. We're trying to find a niche market in the food industry. We wanted something that shows who we are to the market out there. And someone pointed out curry puff. Hey, if there can be a franchise for asam laksa, donuts, popiah, why can't we have curry puff? So, we made our franchise revolves around puff. Not just curry puff, we'll be creative and innovative. There's more than one way to eat a puff.

So, we also hold on to the phrase "glocalisation". We're going to branch out our product by thinking outside the box. We'll promote the taste of Malaysia to the world, and cures world hunger on puff at a time. Obviously, we won't be too ambitious and starts small first. We have big plans for our product, but we'll start our quest step by step. Starting with South East Asia.

Norhidayah, VP Product & Branding : Manage the product & cooperates with offshore HQ & Marketing Dept.

Playing with Food.
Like I mentioned earlier, there's more than one way to eat a puff. Curry puff is the traditional way, but can you survive by just selling one type? Of course not. People demands choices and varieties. And at the moment of discussion, it was around 11am. We're getting hungry, so our empty stomach boosted our imagination on this part. Think Choco-banana puff, like a French Crepe; Hawaiana puff, inspired by Calzone; Glutonia puff, filled with ice cream. There's more where this come from!

Since we're trying to conquer South East Asia, we try to make our puffs suit the taste of the locals. We thought of what Indian, Chinese, Phillipines likes to eat, and put them in our puffs. We made different menu for different countries. We even thought of marketing plan!

Redhayana, VP Finance : Control & manage the resources flow in the company.

If you still haven't noticed, we still haven't discussed about what the tasks required. An organization. Yes. We're too busy with our ambitious imagination. In the end, we chose to have a product/market organization since it suits our Glocal concept. And because there's only four of us, but so many position to fill, we used one of our name of one title.

For instance, my name is Aqilah Zaiyanie. Therefore,

• President = Aqilah,
• VP Marketing = Zaiyanie.

Thankfully, we only have to create the main headquarters' organizational chart. The offshore department has their own chart, and our lecturer said we are not required to make them too.

Oh, we even sketched a brand design and thought of a color theme. Not forgetting the concept of our franchise. If you still hasn't noticed, I'm into contemporary retro design.

We're Public Administration students, our syllabus train us to work efficiently for the government or any desk job. We can also venture into policy and law industry. But here we are, without any sort of formal training on marketing and business. (Okay, I did, for a month and half. But they don't.) So, this kind of says something about us.

P/S: Dear Business Studies students, can you keep up with us? xp

Gossip Girl Season 3

Seriously, who haven't heard of the hit TV series - Gossip Girl? If you're able to online and read my blog, you heard of Gossip Girl. I said heard, not watch.

I'm a fan. D'uh, my favorite fictional character - Chuck Bass, is from Gossip Girl. Again, I'm never fanatic about anything. So, I don't go around dressing up like Blair or Serena (Thou, I'm more of a Serena than Blair). Or worse, acting like one. Hey, I love the internet. But it doesn't rule my life. And I don't go around backstabbing friends to go up in the social ladder. That's another thing I couldn't be bothered in life. Why? Because to do that, takes lots of work, all those makeups, fake smiles, insincerity - hypocracy. Not to mention, one has to be vain to be one. I have more important things in life than to worry about what others think of me.



In addition, I tend to try my best to live up to my own principles. I hate hypocrites - so, I try not to be one. Obviously, we can't run away from making some white lies. But, that's life. Just don't go around being nice and supportive to a friend, then behind her, you bitch and try to seduce her man. I can spot this kind of people from a mile away. And if you are a psychic, you'd know who in my bloglist are the bigger backstabber. I won't name names, but if you're not one, you don't have anything to be offended about.

Oh, back to Gossip Girl. In the main preview, Serena appears to get herself in the middle of a paparazzi scandal, Dan looks to be the king of a college party, and Chuck Bass — unsurprisingly — finds himself tempted to stray from Blair. Also, there's a shirtless scene involving horses, and if anything has ever called for a WTF, it might be that. I think the most intriguing stuff happens in the character videos, where Blair looks sad and out of place at NYU, Dan gets an intriguing new make-out partner, and we get our first look at Joanna Garcia as a new love interest for Nate.

Lonely boy? A College-party King? Gosh, never see that one coming. Guess Blair was right. I can't wait for the new season! I'm going to download it, and watch it over and over -and over- again!

Here's some sneak peek videos! Enjoy!



Nate Archibald


Headband


Blair Waldorf


Serena van der Woodsen


Daniel Humphrey


Chuck Bass

You know you love me

XOXO,
Gossip Girl

ATTN: Gossip Girl fans

Chuck & Blair Never Looked Better.

I just can't find the word to describe it. I want my Charles Bass! Eff Edward Cullen! No one beats Chuck!

Rinie Will Love This!

So, you love Channing Tatum huh? Bet you'll love this too.

Enjoy! *sinister smile*



To avoid any speculation, I do not, DO NOT, surf around the internet and search for explicit videos. We have Perez for that job. Haha.

G.I. Whoa!

Usmagazine.com has obtained a video of Channing Tatum, 29, dancing in a Chippendales-style revue called Male Encounter in 1999.

Then 18, the star -- who performed under the alias "Chan Crawford" -- approached the troupe's owner London Steele at a now-defunct Florida nightclub about a job.

"He was shy at first, but he really knew how to work the stage," Steele tells Us, adding that Tatum lip-synched in the act and earned $50 a night (plus tips) during his year-long stint.

"The women went crazy for him!" Steele added.

Unfortunately for them, the revue had a strict no-nudity policy.

Nevertheless, the actor --- who wed his Step Up costar Jenna Dewan on July 11 -- was so impressive he caught the eye of a female casting agent who put him in Ricky Martin's "She Bangs" music video.

H1N1

It's 4.28am now, and I can't sleep. Why? My back is aching from the sunburn. I had it when we celebrated Viv's birthday in Nexus Karambunai. Obviously, we played some water sports. And even did a lazy bodyboarding. (Roxy and I found a rope attached to an anchor, so we hold on to it, so we don't drift to the shore with our boards. Haha.) The lessons to be learn here is:
1) Never trust the sunblock to last more than 2 hours.
2) Don't go bodyboarding around 12! When the Sun is directly above your head!

I'm not going to tell you more about the fun we had. You'll just have to see some of the pictures in my Facebook profile. Now, I'm going to write about H1N1. Since my back and muscles are torturing me, there's no better way to pass my time in the middle of the night than blog-surfing. Obviously, I started from my own personal blogroll, my friends'. And I ran into Rinie's. She posted a Youtube video. A parody of Wonder Girl's "Nobody". It's hilarious.



After watching the video, I remembered other blog posts about some cute/funny face masks. I looked back for them, and managed to find most of them. I'm not going to write much, since my arms are still tired from the canoeing. Enjoy the pictures!

Don't get to near. Or she'll go APE!

I don't think she can't prevent swine flu with this mask.

Finally, a Japanese with a bushy moustache.

This one is just plain CREEPY! He must have drew it himself.
Look like Joker inspired, don't you think?

Ah, Asian girls will love these.

Apart from the creepy vibe going on. Do you think this person is a guy or a girl?

OMG! I love this one!

A guy with Hello Kitty face mask? Oh no.

Imagine if she's your dentist.

Well, this is useful.

Zipper face masks not only convenient for eating. You can do others too!

I wonder where I can get one of those zipper face masks around here. Have any idea?

Oh, there's other parody for the swine flung songs. Here's some. For more, go to Youtube and search for "Swine Flu Song".

Jonas Brothers' Lovebug parody


Wake Me Up Before You Go Go parody


Britney Spears' Womanizer parody


Soulja Boy's Turn My Swag On parody

Parents

Don't it ever crossed your mind that they are the most annoying human being in your life, yet you can't help but to love them unconditionally anyway?

Well, I do. All the time! Especially toward my mom. Gosh, she gets into my skin every time, yet I still love her, and do whatever she said.

My mom, well, you can say that she's sort of a Nazi. The world revolves around her, and nothing else matter to her. You do what she says, OR ELSE! Yes, I have that kind of mom. My aunt always label her as the "big boss", I guess that's the polite way of saying it. That power that she holds and demands doesn't stop just in my family, it extend to her siblings and in her office. Well, maybe she's to do that in her workplace, as she is the senior executive there. Nevertheless, that doesn't excuse her from taking her work mode home. She need to learn to stop bossing people around! Have some limit, woman!



People always say, if you want someone to stop ordering you to do something, do it miserably. It doesn't work; it NEVER work. She still boss me around to do it, anyway. Even when I pull a face, throw tantrums, argue with her, everything that can cause me to be labeled as an insolent child. She still won't stop.

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't want to help out my own mother. I do. She just need to put a line, so that I can live my own life. Yes, I need a life, that doesn't revolve around serving her every little needs. I don't mind driving her to places, or running some errands for her. But I need my day off too! I need a time away from this family too! She can't always expect me to drop everything I do, just to drive her to a shop that is 2 blocks away from the house. She can't expect me to walk away from whatever I planned with my friends, just because she need me to drive her somewhere, when I already told her in advance (1 week notice!) that I have plan and will not be able to be there for her. She need to do things on her own again, just like before I know how to drive or run errands. She need to let go of me. Or I will do it for her.

Thankfully, I have such an amazing group of friends. They know what my parents are like, and they don't hold it against me every time I walked out on them. I'm so grateful to have them in my life, that understand how my dysfunctional family works. However, no matter how tolerant they are to my behavior, I still feel guilty. I feel bad for not being able to be there for my friends when they need me the most, just because my parents don't understand the true meaning of friendship. Sometimes, I just want to do what Intan did in her teenage years, and be rebellious. But I can't, I don't have the guts to do it. I can't plot against them like she did. And I know my parents will be extremely disappointed in me if I do.

That doesn't stop me from planning it, thou. I plan for everything in my life. Everything from my daily life to my career path. So far, I'm always on track with my plans, apart from the occasional disrupt from my parents (but I do have backup plans for these things, so, no worries). Yes, I plan to be rebellious. How thoughtful. Intan's rebel by doing whatever crosses her mind on that exact moment, based on guts and instinct. And I plan my mischievous ways; how, when, why, where, who. That definitely shows that being sisters doesn't mean you'll have the same personality and thinking.

I will not spill any details about what my plans are, because that will be stupid. I will, however, put off that plan until I have enough of it. When that happens, you'll never see it coming. Of course, I'd warned Intan about this, she just hopes whatever I planned, whenever I decided to accomplish it, I won't screw up my life over it. And I will always keep in touch with her, even if its once a month or once a year. So, I promised her that.

I'm turning 19 this month. So, legally, I don't need my parents' or guardian's approval anymore. I'm responsible for my own life. My parents need to get around with that idea, and release me. They should learn from their mistakes. Or at least remember what it's like to be 19. They're lucky they have Intan to keep me sane and in place. So far, she's the reason why I'm still tolerating with their behavior. Maybe the reason doesn't sound right, since I should love my parents more than my sister. But at least it has done its deed.

I love you, but I just need to get away from you. Or else, I'll never achieve my full potential. You're just like a form of drug, the kind that boost you up when you take it in small portion; but kills you if you overdose. I won't let the latter to happens to me, at any cost.

August

August. The month August can easily be on top of my list of favorite time of the year. Not only it's my favorite number, 8, it's also my birth month. There's lots of activities can be done in August. Furthermore, autumn season falls on August in Northern Hemisphere, which includes the entire Europe. Europe is on top of my list of places to visit. I've always loved the idea of Europe during autumn season, when all the tress are brownish, and leaves falling. Chilly weather, as the Winter draws by. I've never been outside Asia yet, but soon enough, I'll land my foot on European soil.

However, that's not the case for this year. In fact, I felt like skipping the whole July-November semester. If only the universal remote control, that Adam Sandler used in his film "Click" actually exist, I would buy it and skip this chapter of my life. Just like the Sims game I always play. I would use it more wisely and beneficiary than Adam has. Maybe this will only be the only time I'll use it, (maybe I'll fast forward or set on autopilot for my classes) I'm just dreading this semester.



First of all, I dislike the classes I'm taking this semester. Well, I'm just unable to get my head around studying anymore. My laziness is on it's peak! As usual, I'm doodling in class and barely paying attention to the lecturers. Worst, I'm copying other people's work. Especially for Management, Financial Accounting and Microeconomics. Fortunately, I have some basics for my Management class, as I took the course for 1 month in my first semester here. My then lecturer was super-fun and awesome, therefore I remember everything she taught me. My current lecturers for these three courses are, what you can call, plain boring and dull. If only I could make a deal with my university: I don't have to attend those classes, as long as I maintain my GPA, and get A for each of them. To me, that's fair deal, win-win situation. Again, IF ONLY.

Next, for the Muslims, the fasting month, Ramadhan, falls on August this year. To be more specific, on the 21st of August. Two days before my birthday. And it's on Sunday, and there's no holidays on that week. So, I can't do anything for my birthday. Intan planned to take me for an escapade short vacation to Bali for my special day. As usual, she didn't run things with me first, so she didn't know I can't go anywhere, or would have the energy to do anything that I wanted to do in Bali. And Mom wouldn't let us go to Bali on fasting month, anyway. How depressing. My Bali trip has never been successfully accomplished.

Another reason is, there's Pikom PC Fair in Sabah Trade Centre on 7th till 9th August. Yes, I should be jumping with joy, being the geek that I am. But, do keep one thing in mind, I'm a student with no income, and I rely on my parents for financial aids. So, what's the point for a geek to go to a PC Fair, where all the gadgets are on bargain, and leave without buying anything? It will only causes pain on my part. I told my mom about the event a few weeks earlier, so she could prepare her budget for me. Instead, she planned for something else, she's going to Kuala Lumpur the day before PC Fair, and only coming back 3 days after. She knows I'm going to ask for something expensive, and she couldn't deny it, as it's my birthday coming up, and I should be rewarded for doing well last semester.

Furthermore, I still don't know what to ask for my birthday. A car? I don't need one, plus, I'm planning on leaving this place as soon as I finish my diploma. A new phone? Well, my current one is a bit of a mess, as the buttons are all screwed up. But, I'm not sure what phone to get. Plus, mom keep talking about the how expensive phones are overrated and not worth it. I rather keep using my current phone than buying a lower grade phone. A camera? I planned on getting a digital camera at first, but now, I'm not so sure. We have a Canon DSLR at home already, so there's pretty much no point of getting a new one. I'm not really all that crazy about photography anyway. So, what should I get for my birthday? Maybe I should just ask for a 2 weeks vacation in England. Despite the H1N1 outbreak that scaring everyone from walking into any airport. How's that?

Not forgetting, with the passing of Malaysia's most prominent director, Yasmin Ahmad, recently, there's no more interesting commercials to look forward to this Independence Day. Yasmin always manage to promote cultural diversity and unity in all her works. She made them witty, yet deep. No one can take her place. Her passing is a great loss to the nation.

Photographer For Hire

As you may know, a very good friend of mine, Kristine Emmanoelle (or Krissy to the close circle) had shown her interest in photography. Ever since she got her Canon DSLR camera for her 20th birthday, she's been playing with her baby (yes, she calls her camera "baby"). From ants to buildings and people, she's been making the moment permanent through the shots of her camera. Capturing the moment has become her obsession. She wants to bottle up the emotions through the lens of camera so that she can share it with everyone and make the moments last.

Now, she wants to capture that special moments in your life, so that you too can look back and reminisce the good times that you had.

Here's some sample of her works. All the models are her friends and family, willingly pose so that Krissy can sharpen her skills and sense with the lens.








For RM100 for a session, you have the privillage of enjoying Krissy's touch in photography. She'll gives you the best 50 shots in a CD, so that you can your favorite, and print them any amount you like. Her package is negotiable, of course.

For any questions or information regarding Krissy's service, you may contact her directly through her mobile number (+60195851681), her e-mail (awkward_lines@yahoo.com) or her blog. You can also submit any inquiries through me, I'd be happy to help.

Oh, don't forget that we're based in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. So, if you're somewhere outside of KK city, and wants her service, we have to negotiate the transportation.

You can check out more of her works at her photoblog or Flickr.

If those links doesn't work, try these:
http://k-emmanoelle.blogspot.com/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/k-emmanoelle/

Why

I have this blog for a while now. And I've always, ALWAYS, wonder what to share with the blogosphere. Where should I draw the line so that anything that I share with you will not be too much information and still respect my privacy. Do you know where's the fine line that make it okay to share?

Most of the time when I write, I'll get carried away with all my emotions and write everything that crosses my mind and heart. And after re-reading my post, I'll decide that its too much or too personal to share. So, they are never published, but remain as draft. I kept telling myself, I'll write a more brief version of it. But we all know, that won't happen as the emotions already fades.

How about the times there's something big (both exciting or bad) happens in our life, and we wanted to share it so much but there's no computer around. And by the time we got our hands on one, we doesn't feel like it anymore. The excitement has gone. Or we're just too gloomy to write it down. This is always my reason why there's often a long time period between my posts. It's not that I don't have anything remotely interesting to share with the readers. On contrary, I have a lot of things going in my life. Sometime, things are so hectic, that I don't even have time to write. (Which is why, I placed a Twitter in my blog, so you can read my status update.)

I know I won't be able to update my blog all the time. That's why there's a list of my friends' blog on the right column of my blog. They're my friends, obviously, our lives are connected to one another. If I don't update any of my sites, you can just check out theirs, and know that they'll somehow mention me. For instance, Nana's latest post will tell you that she and I had a H1N1 scare the other day. You may wonder why in the world am I not writing anything about it. Well, after knowing that you were that close to be infected by H1N1, would you think about sharing it to the world, or go to the clinic? Exactly.

So, don't be mad at me for not updating in a while. I will. Eventually. That's a promise.